what to do

[bdvar]

Well fellas im in the fn dog house and need some advice. My girl saw on my phone where i was lookinh at porn online about a month ago and not just any porn the chicks u talk to webcams idk wtf i was thinking just chillin on the computer and opened junk mail and shit popped up so i just keeped looking and did my buisness and thats it. Now we all do it just dnt get caught but a few days ago i went and got her a ring to propose someyime over the holidays now this. So any words of wisdon from you bros would help. Oh and i was on 800mg a week of test prop at the time so i just couldnt stop myself lol

[chiselmeat]

I know what you mean. When I want to look at porn I have my wife get naked and sit on my lap as we surf porn pictures together. So I really can't help you.

[bdvar]

and thats what she told me to shes down to do that with me but the fact i did it makes her feel like shes not good enough for me and the trust is broken and shes never gonna stop questioning me. i told her whatever it takes tho to be with her ill do even admitting i have a problem and going to therapy im that serious about this girl! and to top it off im only a couple weeks into pct and its making me such a little bitch but im glad im off cycle cuz when she saw that on my phone i tried to go after her when she went to leave and she fn jacked my jaw son i cant remember the lasttime ive been hit that hard

[Pack11]

I would love to give you some advice... but I have never had a successful relationship soo... my advice could sound good, but who knows if it is.

All I can say is that if it's meant to be it'll work itself out. THERE ARE ALOT LOT worse things you could have done. I would just try to play it off that curiosity got the best of you, and that you wouldn't ever consider doing that in real life.

be careful to not propose in a panic though thinking you are going to loose her, it wouldn't be the right time... propose when things are good and you can catch her off guard i'm sure things will work out.

[bdvar]

Thanks pack any advice just about is good advice at this point but im just letting it take its toll. She has a good friend that works for my cell provider and is getting all of my phone calls and text printed out for the last 3 months and were gonna look at them when she gets off work i just hope she sees ive been faithfull and gives me another chance cuz pussy has never been hard to find for me but a women like this is hard to find so i guess whatever i have to do i will

[CWB]

I dont know of a magical fix here but you let her know that shes whats important and that your willing to do what it takes to work thru this. Its comes down to her caring enough to do the same. I would definitely hold off on the proposal until this cools down. You dont want her to feel in any way that your proposal is tied to trying to fix this. Stick with it and if shes the one it will work out. Also let this be a reminder to clear the history on your phone/computer.

[bdvar]

the ring is def been set aside im not even thinking about that. Shes just one of those girls thats dated and been done wrong everytime so i hear and im just another one to add to the list and there is a 7 1/2 year age diff between us so she doesnt kno if i deserve another chance which who could blame her i was treated like a king she has to think im a peice of shit.

[bdvar]

im heading to the gym to try and get a half ass workout in and get a break from reality

[^mR.]

Wow dude every guy looks at porn i dont understand these girls that have a big issue with it. Does she know you cycle ? If it were me i wouldn't go running to her saying sorry and all that sounds like she needs a bit of tough love. There has been no trust broken here shes just over reacting to a bit of porn its stupid. Means nothing to men its just a sexual thing and she has to understand this !

[bdvar]

Well id feel that were true if it was just reg porn somehow on my email it saved responses i was sending the little cam girl..talk about fn embarrassing! Yes she knows i cycle she does my injects i have trouble reaching the whole aas thing isnt a problem